Permanency

Is alluring an escape from the newness and undiscovered. Feel like a child and associate adulthood with being boring and dry. It doesn't have to be i know that but associate it nevertheless as the fear of the nuclear family. One that doesn't explore and loses curiosity.

I don't want to lose curiosity over the exploration.

Perhaps it is the fear of never having lived the life I wanted, the unlived adventures I imagine there being when confusing the reality with the imagined. But who's against living the dream, why do we need to end up loving the reality we don't feel a part of? I find that sad.